It is difficult to feel empty inside and still smile as if nothing is wrong.
It is terrible to wake up every 2-3 hrs and find yourself alone, scared everynight - as if living a nightmare everyday.
It is awful not to have a sense of belongingnes, as if you do not exist anywhere, or to anyone.
It is tiring to constantly remind yourself that it is okay not to be okay.
We mostly live a life, that leads us nowhere, leaves us with nobody. Its like a dead end at times, you keep going and going and you reach nowhere. All of sudden - end of road. And you feel helpless and hopeless as you never knew or reached your destination.
It is heartbreaking to see yourself in the mirror, as if you are looking at some stranger. Do you know me? Do I know you? You question yourself. It is like deja vu - you do not really remember how you have become, what you have become.
Still you live through everyday. You smile, you laugh. You keep rolling. You get tired and angry at yourself. You pinch yourself to snap out of it. Sometimes you succeed, mostly you fail. You cry endlessly as if you have lost a closed one - actually you keep loosing yourself. Even If it gets worse, YOU still keep breathing.
Life is hard, keep trying harder.
